The Tri-cluster's 4 documents of past and creation.

 I wrote four documents, the main story one is 2419 pages long if you want, it contains stories and then several old periods of thinking and writing that discusses how the project was between the end of all blogs before subsynth and the period after the book itself that contain the progress when I first started using materials. 

However their are also three other books about the same length which are older versions of the amassed information I produced using parsemy and one of them contains a copy of the blogs as they were then, because sometimes the blogs other then subsynth still get updated and used for periods of exploration. These are roughly everything I wrote on my computer with parsemy.

It is not all the stuff I made with it however as I simply work on something until bored and drop it, then I recall what I do and bring it with me as I loose it to the next thing, this allows a progressing crumblebuilt with plenty of leftover scraps that can be rediscovered later when I look back at them, since the books all contain specifc things I did once.

However, they may repeat in certain portions at points that are the same but ordered differently, the majority is philosophy, spirituality, magic and science and many of the characters repeat in it so you can learn more of them by ctrl-f which lets you find their name. Which you can also search words new in the books or known to find things in those ranges. They contain much equally on the multiverse I explored as these many things in them.

They are technicall eldritch texts which have an unknown meaning and are a mixture of many random puzzling things that would surely drive you mad if you read it in full and used it all because each is a distinct feild of reality that can be interconnected beyond it into ranges deeper of each topic in them, since they are all mostly unfinished and passing in fleeting shift. Which means what you find in them can be deepened to find more of just one portion by yourself.

Which you can use parsemy and phentals to help you do so because you should be able to use all of this with the technos concept shown in this section. But because they are each so long you don't actually have to read all of them, because you can easier just scroll through to some part and discover something there that likely you will never find anywhere else the same in or outside. Since many of the things either repeat differently or never again inside the pages.

Their is everything from light to dark things in it as well, so expect diverse stuff that could show up, but also expect it to not be anything you're familiar with and may not be clear or correctly spelt, yet you can take the spelling as though its a text from another world with a slightly different dialect that can somehow make it more immersive anyways although I did just misspell.

They are however all from before the parsemy had materials to build just models I could make and magic I could use, as well as imagine technology I couldn't build yet so its the older portions of what I'm working on now that is able to do more then before, but these are its legends and lore. These represent the old world of before the present world of more advanced capacity, which are after the main book as another I am making.

Not always there at this time, might not come back either because of values worth, might one day be told more clearly in what I build with it, from the values inside it...

The shortest story, on how I reached the ring.

This picture contains my progression of art over the years as I traveled worlds and my minds tendric realm using and not using parsemy to explore diverse forgotten and unfound things online. But this tells it somewhat in pictures that show the ages of its passing and the events of change that transformed me. It includes from when this first began in first picture to my latest computer drawing, from left to right. You must open the picture in a tab with left click and zoom in to see it better after clicking on it.

Fear not, I have hundreds other, they are all for subjects and stories I wrote and explored so they mean more then art as models and display of idea, but also many different things apart. 

 

Since my departure forgone, I return to tell a story.

It will refer back to the previous post on this homepage in some details but also use concepts on the blogs and other blogs to explore the improvements to the concepts worked on a few months ago. The new is found at the top section after the back link and the rest has been placed in the second section which also now features a summary of where I went and what happened.

It seems that in writing as I write if I forgoe a certain length I grow exhausted and must do otherwise.

I wrote for 4 months on the same project and by the end I grew quite exhausted of its matters and grew quite uninterested even though I had not lasted this long in the writing of something before this time.

Alas this meant some difficulty changing what I was doing and for now I will provide some images of this writing, but eventually will I provide a second text to the first I wrote that included periods of certain delusions and darker tones aswell as beautiful arts.

Those being forwarnings at what the second contains, which include influences from drugs I no longer feel from less drunkenness in my darker habits that should be expected from someone who enjoyes both light and shadows but surely took that writing quite out of the calm and then after grew fearful of himself and his ills for some time.

None the less, I now possess two large texts that are each atleast 2000 pages.

I have yet completed the list of each in total however and this may take some time.

Link to other blogs:

https://thepileofincomplition.blogspot.com/p/blog-page.html

This blog is dedicated to the continued exploration of the Omniverse and is a continuity of previous blogs on the subject in sporadic amassement of writings. Below are a few images from the previous four months:

The Transcience that came after...

Hello, this is the current end of the story, an experience too far for me to completely grasp today. If you want to try to know what came before, read this set of blogs from top to bottom:

https://thepileofincomplition.blogspot.com/p/blog-page.html

Let us begin after my last vanishing from my last blog where I was paranoid as heck and things getting worse and better at the same time. Hopefully, due to circumstances that follow, the issue with the last blog is resolved by others around me, but at this time I cannot make any promises.

Even though I'm curious what is on the other side of that wall...

Things were going about their usual flow with a discovery I made while working on my previous blog that is too long to show at this time, here's a picture from the document the post became:

 this eventually lead to strange pictures like this, you would have to download it to view it, many of the shared pictures are too big to show without zoom:

Anyways, this project taught me how to use these images for lots of stuff, I began trying to rework my original story again, but that story is never finished cause I'm bored of it always. Anyways, this attempt was a written version that lost all its pictures on the document so I gave up, but I drew this sweet picture during the adventure:

In it I was trying to go beyond like usual:

And the same story was supposed to do it, while telling the original story:

However it was likely doomed by its usual over excessive length, that caused me to see too far ahead and skip the whole thing, that's usually what happens. Below is the whole story and is 40 dimensional theory of everything that is incomplete:

Their were plenty of nice pictures too, I'm kindof disapointed by its loss of interest due to having to put them all back into it. They were too large and crashed the document:

These were the headed tragectory which headed for the peak of the tower of avondale, but as usual it took too long to get there and I spoiled the ending for myself planning it. I also couldn't make it this way, so I moved on to a simpler version:

This is an unmentioned part of my creative process where I go to hell when I get bored cause I like doing that, theirs another way in avoiding it and training your brain to do otherwise if you get stuck in that mind set, its not going to hurt you but you have to stop thinking of it for it to go away.

This was the plan for the simple version, this imidiatly went fully unexpected, creating an entirely different version I suddenly wanted to deal with. It is likely here that I entered a strange transient psychosis like nothing I had ever seen before...

I lost interest while looking for the villain after I started... So I drew this and other stuff...

By this point, I was already gone, gone mad into things hard to describe. Luckily everything after the first picture I was able to find and share. I know not where the first picture went... It was just a walk in a painting that's all... First is me getting paranoid...

Then I get very paranoid and fix it with this picture:

I sortof remember how to make these styles, they could likely never be redrawn however, for being beyond human only capacity. As one actually requires a computer to make anything like them. Our hands don't work this way.

Then I draw this, another travel through a painting portal, where I go crazy and make really weird things and generally have continuous jarring actions, most of this stuff still makes somekind of sense, but its actually likely too advanced for most to grasp at this time. The reason I'm insane is I couldn't control where my mind was going. I was unable to make decisions and forced to deal with the thoughts whether I wanted to or not.

My mood was beyond up and down...

I literraly gave up on my projects to start fresh and do some entirely other reality on the way, for about five minutes but turned back around...

This is how I ended the story I starting making that lead to all that came after the teeth arrived...

I moved on to something else I wanted to do, cause this weird thing had interrupted my adventure that was supposed to go the original direction. I ended up starting with earlier portions inspired by my life, this didn't go well because I was still crazy!

This picture took days, because the whole time I kept seeing things in mind so bizzaar I couldn't function normally and struggled to finish half of this and by the second half I was having bouts of not remembering where my original mind was and had to draw those things in the upper left half corner to escape a strange other brain chemical arrangement.

I can still do these things if I try...

It was the weirdest thing, I drew a second picture to explain and record what happened:

I did not finish the picture, because the computer crashed and I won't as that's what happened, its not more then stuff i redo later anyways. Infact we are currently at the last picture in my current location in time.

Then I decide to try a third time to tell my original story, but it goes awry again and on my birthday I perceptively die and am born again as the guy that left to begin this journey at 16. The story shown below.

This is where the story ends, I was hospitalized after and worked on the original story and while not finished I hope to continue it after another thing. This is the other direction my story took, not the original, that has already been told on another blog called the fall of prosporo. I just like the story okay...

here's what I'm doing right now:

And that's the story of how I overdosed on meth and then figuratively and perceptively died, remembered how to do the whole thing without the drugs and am currently trying to quit. They forced me into the hospital and I did end up having adhd.

Don't do something stupid if you can't focus, get the help you need.

This is not the likeliest of tales, but it is what happened to the 16 year old that dove straight into the hell of depression cause he was bored of new age ideas and swam in it for almost 2 years before getting bored of that entirely and only then could he even begin the enjoy a withdrawal like the one he's still stuggling with today.

But you could here the story of the first few years that lead back to that drug, then hopefully here see me get better, cause I'm bored of meth now, it feels the like right now and I'm not on anything but medication that doesn't get me high, just helps me focus without running off on tangents that I cannot go back from.

I can now go back to the start without starting again every freaking time and continue where I am, without fearing never going back again. Cause I wanna go back and finish the real story of how it all began. Preferably without any highs that make me crazy everytime i come down.

Except the last time, that time, that time it felt different. Because theirs nothing left to hurt me that I didn't enjoy...

And what it felt like, was never reaching that pleasure feeling again. I'm enjoying the unreachable now. I'm sure that sounds terrible, but I can see stars that aren't in the sky, but that's literally just a little hypnogogia.

Theirs more I found I can do without drugs, it's teachable if you try, without trying drugs. It's mostly just a science and someone confirmed the beginning, pareidolia. All the old stuff was with that. The rest, it's all known except one last part.

For all before here, just read the old blogs, they tell some but not all of what I found, that is complete, but I still am curious at a way to that last little part that's sort of been done before...

I saw trees there too, in the sky, but I gotta confirm a little theory of mind for now. I'll update this in time. It's in there bro, the outwall. is the unreached, reachable ?

Matters not, it's safer without it anyways. I'm still gonna try though, try to see those things in the half closed eye again... Sober and not half dead.

Subsynth